I am in a good mood today. If you know me you know this is...not a usual affair. Although stressed by school, just ended two relationships recently, am concerned by my lack of human contact, am going near crazy, and more stuff that is like being bitch-smacked by the sisters of fate. Why am I so happy you may ask? No... nobody? okay then... hmmm... I wonder if I should just end this post here... I'll bet it would be amusing if I went through with ending because I'll bet nobody cares why I am happy...
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Meh, I shall continue because I am bored and work is in a few hours and blogging is actually entertaining. Okay, so last night was pretty awesome...despite the fact that I was near beating my head against a wall working on a paper most of the day... But I actually found new life in an old friendship that's been slowly fading away. I never have that happen, generally when a friendship isn't going well either I or the other person would just drop it and leave, but we have worked at this for a long time now and we found some new common ground. I absolutely loved that.
Is that all? No mystery announcer, look behind door number two. I have finally decided after a form of spiritual and mental suicide last night or this morning...I'm not sure which but I woke up not caring about life whatsoever. I realized I have been slacking because nothing actually mattered to me anymore. "Life sucks and then you die," My junior year math teacher, Mr. Denino, always told us. Well you were right you balding, fatty, evil, little man. Life does suck. And then you do actually die after a mild to severe amount of that suffering.
Well guess what, I realized how stupid I've been focusing on the pain, carrying around every grievance and allowing it to drive me crazy. I am going to be happy from now on. I don't care if it kills me. No more depression, chaos, undecidedness, anger, foolhardiness, uncaring, loss of interest, or crazy chicks for Richard anymore. Nosiree... I know the last one was random but I feel it was important...for some reason I love crazy evil chicks... doesn't turn out well.
In the words of Dr. Horrible, "It's a brand new day and the sun is high all the birds are singing th..." okay maybe its not the best quote... but the point is that it is a brand new day and things are going to be better. I am going to be more awesome...and keep up with this blog more regularly...I'll edit it too... okay maybe not...
Whether you are one of the ten people who might be reading this within a few hours or days, or you are some future subscribor years from now, I just want you to know something. No matter how bad you think life is. Your own head is probably making it worse. The world does have beauty and hope, you just need to shrug all that weight off of your back, let the old pain and guilt melt away. You can be happy. It may not be easy but it is possible.
I'm not saying this is instantaneous but its a step.
And on the point of steps, I am now going to dance to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZR20t0Uu2M
ps. if someone could tell me how to work advanced hyperlink stuff on this site that would be super
so...this is a growing-up of sorts?
ReplyDeletethat would be a good estimation mademoiselle, im done being cynical, its gotten me nowhere. I may have been in many ways correct before, but that doesnt matter because the truth about the world is pointless knowledge
ReplyDeletewhat a great blog!
ReplyDeletehere is so many inspirations,
have a nice time,
Paula
thanks paula, i hope you follow. its going to take a different turn(actually putting in work) so i adviser you to stick artund for awhile
ReplyDeleteVery inspirational, in the end that is. Not the whole 'life sucks and then you die' kind of thing. but the life is full of beauty and hope. Great way to live, I'd say =)
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